The Ready Writer

So, I've been bitten by the writing bug. All I can do is think up story lines and write write write. I'm very happy for the fact because I was afraid I'd have to tell Cash that I couldn't do it. I have yet to re-do my original stories but I feel I must tweak them to make them more mature and something that won't shame my entire family upon publishing. It's kind of funny. You're grown but at the same time, you still have others to think of.

Dynamic Image is finished with the whole rejuvenation process. I'm excited because Cash is almost finished with her story, and is focusing on publishing it. I'm kind of a groupie but it'd be nice to see a book written by somebody I can say I know personally. I can't wait to publish a book and quite a few people will get to say "I KNOW HER!" and pick it up. Might not buy it because of the recession, but hey, at least they can run home and tell their friends "SHE ACTUALLY DID IT!"

But yeah, it's late, and I'm just putting my thoughts out there. I thought it'd be nice to update since it's been awhile. In either case, I'll try to update more often. Until next time..

My life is slowing down and finding a new rhythm, and the blockage is waning, which I'm thankful for. I just started school and I have to admit that I'm happy with where I am. The only pity I feel is that I might not be able to graduate at this school, being that I may be moving to North Carolina soon. But I have to say that I love it.

Everything is really wonderful though in my life and I'm so thankful to God. I can go on and on for hours but I digress. I'll just go on and talk a little about my new project.

This story that I've been working on since I was thirteen seems to be taking a new direction as I'm rewriting it again. This story always calls for a rewrite since I've gotten older and thankfully more wiser to life. I'm really happy with the beginning so far. I'm not sure whether to post it up yet in the forum as I haven't even finished off any other story I've posted up yet but I have no clue what I'll do as far as that. I'm just so happy to know that my passion for writing hasn't dimmed.

But yeah, I believe that I'm going stop here for now. I'm way too wired and I have to go back to writing. So, until later y'all. Much love.

You would think that I'd have alot to write about because of all the things going on in my life. My relationship with my baby's father is stabilizing. I'm getting ready to start school in July which is very exciting for me. Oddly enough, I'm very happy about that. Maybe I'll fall into the same slump as everybody else and be thankful that school is soon ending. But for now, I'm happy to be back. Life has been so ho-hum since I haven't been there (save for the baby of course). I've been exercising trying to get bikini ready for summer, and of course trying to write.

I'm pretty much stuck trying to write. I'm not sure if I'm forcing it, or if too many things are going on in my life as of this present time. I'm trying to figure out which chapter to put for the compilation book that Cash is putting together, but I'm coming up short as of right now. It would be kind of hilarious if Cash wanted me to publish Cry Me A River as an original story. I'd still have to change names and such. That wouldn't be a bad idea, but shockingly, Cry Me A River was only written in fun. It was never supposed to see the light of day past the internet. But if it sells, I'm not complaining.

But, I'm trying to finish it's sequel. I was going strong when I finished writing Cry Me A River, but shockingly, I've cooled off. I don't know whether it's because I write too much or if I should focus on life a bit more. I admit to being kind of slack when it comes to paying attention to my own child and I have to change that. Being that she's getting older she's becoming a handful. I'm happy with her though. Hopefully I can balance all of this out.

Well, that's enough for now. Until later.

So, my man wants to join the army. I don't know whether I'm happy with his decision or not. It's so many variables to think of when making a decision like that. He's not quite patriotic, but he sees the army as a meal ticket for his family. I can't lie, I'm happy that he wants to do for his child, and I, but I don't think the army is the answer. At the same token, I don't wanna be all against it either. My biggest thing is I just don't wanna feel alone I suppose. But that's just something I might have to deal with. I don't know. But yeah, gotta hit the sack. Until later.

So, I've cleaned up after lazing around for the first part of my day. I can't lie, my room looked like a tornado hit it honestly. Between that and watching my child dig inside of a jar of grease, that was pretty much my day. As boring as the day was, it felt good. It also felt good to have cleared out alot of old things that was sitting around taking up space in my room. It felt good to actually walk inside of my room. The feeling is foreign I'm ashamed to say, but I plan on turning over a new leaf since I need to stay organized. The Capricorn in me needs it, and besides, school is going to start again for me once I get registered and crap.

I guess that's all I have to speak on for now. Until later peoples.

So, I'm sitting here watching my little baby and thinking of new developments in my life. I love the direction my life is taking but for right now, it's interfering with my writing. I'm rebuilding a relationship that's very important to me, and I'm seeing that since it's taking up alot of mind space, my writing is suffering at the hands of it.

Also, being that my child is getting older, she's becoming more active and that's also tearing my attention away from my writing. It's a very annoying struggle because I'm seeing I might have to find a way to divide time between running after my soon to be nine month old daughter, and writing. I really want to revamp the original novels I have for publishing but it's going to take some real time and work. That in itself is making me want to tear my hair out.

Also, the remaining stories on ASR (Allstar Revamped--fanfiction forum) haven't been updated since my computer went down. While I loved writing and getting positive feedback for my work, at the same token like Cash stated in her newsletter, ASR isn't the best place for a serious writer to really bloom the way she might want to. However, I can't knock ASR for it's entertainment value. You'll almost never be bored. I think I've lost the want to update the stories on their as well. I'm stuck between wanting to update, and wanting to squash all unfinished stories that I haven't penned down. The only one I might update is Real, since I've already written the whole entire thing anyway. That and Shameless Pride. If I rewrite the second one, it must be when things in my life are going at a slow pace. I'm very unsure of where my life is going so for now, I'm trying to step backwards to evaluate what I'm going to do as far as those stories I don't see getting published.

Aside from that, I'm excited about Cash publishing Ava's Story. It'd be nice to look in the stands and actually see an author I know personally. (In my case about five other people whenever the rest of the team, and another friend of mine gets published.) Her stepping out in that direction motivates me and all the above. I think she's cool for it...and genius for having us write these blogs. It's helping me air out what's in my head as far as my stories.

Alright that's enough for now. Until later. *waves*